First off, I want to say that one of the reasons I rarely post is because I don’t know how to do something like this without being extremely personal and frank. So this is my blanket apology for any post that makes you uncomfortable.
Everyone says they grow so fast, but it seems an eternity ago that I was childless, or pregnant, or in that delivery room. Just put my baby girl down for the night. What a privledge…to be able to hold her and play with her and just be with her. Sometimes when I am done feeding her I prop her up on my lap and we just sit and snuggle for a few. And sometimes when I’m walking around with her I just smother her little cheek with kisses and I can’t stop and she just lets me. It’s all just so beautiful and precious. Yes…it is boring sometimes. But I will never forget when my dad was dying in the hospital (though I didn’t know it at the time) and I spent so much time there. I was itching to get a job, being just out of college, but nothing was working out. And when he died I realized how good it was that I didn’t work because it was just a short special last time I got to be with him. 
And now I have this beautiful little baby. And sure…I could work and leave her with someone, but I don’t want to. And not just for her, but for me too. This is such a special and rare part of my life right now. She won’t ever remember it…but I will. It is like the scripture says, “ To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven.” So now is a slow, quiet, miraculous time that I am just enjoying for the short while it lasts. Because whenever we have baby#2….
Thanks to my sugar daddy for bringing home the bacon so we can party all day. I feel very lucky and blessed.
Love it, and I totally agree.
meg,
i love this post. so sweet.
So squishy, and so beautiful. Amen on everything you said. It’s been over a year and I still don’t want Tessa to be with anyone else.